Farewelling

SO MY FAREWELL IS OVER.

What the crap?
Did that really just happen? I feel like I should be stressing about writing my talk right now.. thats what I have been doing the past 4 months. HAHA
My farewell had been on my mind from the moment I started thinking about a mission. I had been dreading it since day one. and what the heck did I really already give my talk and its over?

Let me just say a few things about yesterday.

Well I had 8 pages of talk to read. DIDNT READ ONE. and thats what happens when the spirit takes over. (such an AMAZING feeling)

There were close to 600 people in the congregation. AH. (My farewell, a baby blessing, AND a homecoming.)

I have never been so terrified in my whole life

I somehow managed to speak for a whole year up there.. (30 minutes to be exact)

I unexpectedly cried multiple times in my talk and was so stressed that I had an ugly crying face..

I don't think I have ever heard such loud laughter in my life except for when I talked about how
Kylee won't be getting married. haha (still laughing at that slam)

I think I just might have said Um one too many times.. HA why me..

We served just over 500 pieces of HOMEMADE pizza. (we made it the night before with the help of my favorite people on earth, Evan and Heather Moss)

My house was literally an oven cooking at about 400 degrees with 400 human bodies inside

I wonder how many more bodies we could have squeezed in my dang house.

I think I said Thank You SO much, about 9,000 times yesterday.

AAAaaaand I know that my heavenly father loves me.

OH AND I LEAVE IN 9 DAYS SO WOAH

This is my Lovely bestie Baylee Snow

She'll probs be married when I return :(

AND here are some embarrassing pics of me as I sat waiting with a heart pounding and a mind racing, to stand up and speak in front of a giant blur of humans staring at me.

(You are allowed to laugh)

hahaha

Me and MY FAVORITE Emily Eyre

(she is a pro at decorating and displaying)

thanks to her my house looked super cute decked out in NYC decor 

AND write me, wait for me 

(heart heart)

23 MORE DAYS.. till I'm a sista mish

YEAH. okay.

So like twenty.... three... more. days.

That is not a lot of time!!
 I think its also starting to sink in a little bit as I have been buying my luggage and my sheets, towels, etc., I have also started writing my farewell talk. UM K so I hate giving talks. let alone writing the dang talk. HA (wake up abb you're going on a mission) Right? I guess thats what I'll be doing the next 18 months so I better get over the fact that I hate to talk in front of a lot of people...
whatevs. june 29th is the farewell day. blehhhh

So I just thought i'd write down some of my feelings as my time is dwindling down to nothing. So that I can look back at this blog when I return :)

I feel NERVOUS first of all
But second of all I feel way more EXCITED than I feel nervous.
I sometimes feel like I don't know enough to be a freakin missionary. (anyone with me??)
I am not quite sure how to study preach my gospel. I study ch. 3 most of all...
My mind is constantly thinking of New York.
I hope my mission president likes me..
I am PRAYING that I will get a trainer that won't think I am an idiot
I don't know how I will like my stay at the MTC. I hear its like EFY on steroids.... AH
I havent cried about leaving my family yet.. But I know when the tears come.. they will pour out
I hope that I can relate to the people of NY in my own special way
I cannot wait to wear a missionary tag
The fact that Im speaking English.. YAY
Hopefully having Facebook will be a good thing for me
I pray that my companions will love me for who I am!!! (I love clothes/shoes/hair/beauty/etc.)
Hopefully I will survive without my mom doing my laundry.. (yes, my mom does my laundry, get over it)
HA I better not gain weight
I think I am thinking too much
BUT I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT THIS IS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING no matter how many crazy feelings I have inside, I know that my heavenly father will not let me fail. He will be with me ALL the time and the spirit will teach me and teach the people of NY.

ANYWAY my farewell is in 13 days. That makes my heart race. so here are some pictures

My skirt is from Zara incase anyone is wondering ;)  its so comfy