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HI THERE SISTA DUNFORD HERE

Funny Stuff:
So NO I am not going to fashion week today because there were no more tickets... :( But.. hahaha. I got PERMISSION to go to fashion week. what on earth. Hahaha I called President on the phone.. President has over 250 missionaries to take care of, and here I am asking him for permission to go to fashion week. I JUST COULDN'T PASS UP THE OPPORTUNITY!  Aahhaahh. He was like "I think that sounds fun!!" I was SHOCKED. Straight up shocked. I love President Morgan you guys. He is amazing. The Morgan's win in my book. I could go ON and ON and ON about how incredible the Morgan's are. The most Christlike couple I've ever met. So humble, patient, loving, knowledgable, charitable etc. they have all the Christlike attributes. And to top off all the attributes, they know how to have FUN while living the gospel. You guys, we totally CAN have fun and be normal and be cool while living the gospel. Living the gospel is the coolest thing you could do. I love it. #coolestmormons

   

Transfer NEWS:
I'm.... STAYING in South Manhattan .... And training a brand new missionary from the good old MTC. Her name is Sister Spencer and I'mvSO pumped to meet her. She gets here on Friday! WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN SHE WONT EVEN KNOW WHAT HIT HER. It's supa great. Hahaha we are going to WORK MEGA HARD. There are only TWO new english sisters coming into the mission.. and I get to train one of them!! Woo!! I feel so blessed to be in this area. We have THREE baptismal dates. Sister Spencer is coming to the right place man. I love Sister Spencer so much already.  (Let's hope she looooves me!!!) haha!! It was really cool to hear President talk about how they decide who the trainers are. He said: "you can imagine a few weeks ago as I was praying and thinking about trainers, your name was whispered to me." (Gives me chills) Wowza. To be part of revelation is COOL. I know Heavenly Father is putting Sister Spencer and I together for a reason. We are meant to be HERE in Manhattan TOGETHER. Let's goooooo Sista Spenca!!

Randomness:
*Sister Brown is going to THE BRONX. It's a partay in Da Bronx man.
*Today is P day and guess what we are doing. Shopping.
*Valentine's Day was goody. We passed out PINK heart Valentine's and
free hot chocolate and gave freeee church tours!! (So many people in
LOVE here in NYC) cough cough (jealous.) Hahah. Nope teasin.. ;)
*Its Fr Fr Fr FREEZING here. (You lucky little Utaherz in your warm weather.)
*I loved seeing the MINNICKS at church.
*I am being over fed here every night.
*I got to go to Scarsdale for the trainers meeting. Those train rides are the best little breaks EVA.
*President and Sister Morgan got to go to UT for an Ipad meeting.
(They were SO close to YA fam!)
*I am HAPPY

So this week we had a lesson with one of our male investigators who I've been talking about for a while now. He has SO many deeeep deep questions. Which is great. But his questions aren't very important when it comes to his progression in the gospel. (Some missionaries would call him an "eternal investigator.") haha just feels like he is a never ending investigator. In a lesson last week we asked him how he felt about what we have been teaching him and how it makes him feel. He told us he feels NOTHING.... Uhhh.. WHAT.. Okay. I was super frustrated for a second. I was thinking "Heavenly Father why aren't you sendin him the spirit! Why don't you give him a clear answer. Why isn't he feeling the spirit after everything we've done for him and taught him?" (Just a few of my thoughts during our lesson..) and don't worry my thoughts HAVE changed since that lesson :) Well it's quite interesting because he refuses to come to church. And he won't read the Book of Mormon. and he only prays when he wants to. RED flag. (I was like dude why are you even meeting with us then..?) It's weird. Like I understand if for a little bit people don't want to come to church.. but after a while... It's important that investigators keep commitments and start to act on the things we are teaching them. (Otherwise it's waste of our time to focus on somebody that doesn't have real intent.) Preach My Gospel tells us that to have real intent is "to be committed to ACT on the answers we receive." Obviously this man is not committed to act on ANYTHING.. which is exactly why he is not feeling the spirit. I've been trying my hardest to discern this mans needs because I really REALLLy want him to progress. Well I've come to the conclusion (I don't want this to sound rude.. But if I'm being honest..) he is straight up prideful. I just want to be bold and go to his face and be like "HEY YOU PRIDEFUL MAN BECOMETH LIKE A CHILD WHY DONT YA!?!" hahaha. (But that wouldn't be very humble of ME ha!!) anyways.. I've discovered that he is not very humble. He told us last week that he is at peace with the fact that we just die and then that is the end... 3 things! ONE: I just don't understand that AT ALL... TWO: that's sad for him.... THREE: what a lame to live life... (To anyone who believes that death is the end.... You might want to rethink your life!!) I mean COME ON. (Forgive me for my bold opinion..) but we are NOT here to just be humans and then reproduce humans and then die. Like that is the dumbest thing ever. There IS MORE. I want our investigator to just take a step back, take a niiiiice big glass of humble juice, and swallow his pride! (Is there such a thing as humble juice??) haha. Sheesh a lot of people need some humble juice. For cryin out loud we ALL need some humble juice. Myself included. I've really been thinking about the importance of humility this week. HUMILITY is so important. Without humility we are blocking God from speaking to us. Those that are not humble have a hardened heart and until they soften it... They won't receive the truth. 
In a talk called, "Be Meek and Lowly of Heart," Elder Ulisses Soares says: ".. Become humble. The Lord instructed Thomas B. Marsh through the Prophet Joseph Smith, saying, 
“Be thou humble; and the Lord thy God shall lead thee by the hand, and give thee answer to thy prayers."  "I believe, brothers and sisters, that only those who are humble are able to acknowledge and understand the Lord’s answers to their prayers. The humble are teachable, recognizing how dependent they are on God and desiring to be subject to His will. The humble are meek and have the ability to influence others to be the same. God’s promise to the humble is that He will lead them by the hand. I truly believe that we will avoid detours and sadness in our lives as long as we walk hand in hand with the Lord."  YES. Right? SO how do we be humble?? To be humble, (to me) means to be WILLING to act. (LIVE the gospel.) To Acknowledge that there is more than just you and your own little life. to have humility we should "Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend." Mosiah 4:9
(Kinda like when I was a child and I knew that I didn't know it all... And I needed to ask for help from my parents a lot!) #becomelikeachild
I studied a talk called Lord, is it I? By Dieter F. Uchtdorf and he says: "We must approach our Eternal Father with broken hearts and teachable minds. We must be WILLING to LEARN and to CHANGE. And, oh, how much WE GAIN by committing to live the life our Heavenly Father intends for us. Those who do not wish to learn and change probably will not and most likely will begin to wonder whether the Church has anything to offer them. But those who want to improve and progress, those who learn of the Savior and desire to be like Him, those who HUMBLE themselves as a little child and seek to bring their thoughts and actions into harmony with our Father in Heaven--THEY will experience the miracle of the Savior’s Atonement. THEY will surely FEEL God’s resplendent SPIRIT. THEY will taste the indescribable joy that is the fruit of a meek and humble heart. THEY will be blessed with the desire and discipline to become true disciples of Jesus Christ." So to wrap up my scattered thoughts on humility... It's obvious that God does not communicate with us when we have a hardened heart. (Our investigator is not receiving the spirit.) Why would he receive the spirit? He doesn't have real intent. And THATS why it's HIS problem. Not Gods. So if you EVER feel like you aren't feeling ANYTHING, and you wonder if God is really there.. you might just want to take a great big glass of humble juice. ;) and do THIS:
"..becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon (you), even as a child doth submit to his father." YEAH.
all I'm sayin is WE ALL NEED TO LIVE THE DOCTRINE OF CHRIST. It's
simple. Just be humble and live THE GOSPEL :)
Okay sorry for going on and on.

I LOVE YA!!!

Love Sister Abba Dunford

Fashion Week Fun

Hey

Guess what week it is here in NY....FASHION WEEK. Mwaahahah. You guys I literally am right in the hood of #NYFW. I don't know why but I have this strange love for fashion week. You know I'll be passin out Book of Mormons right along with those gift bags :) hahaha.

Holy cow. It was a much needed amazing week. I don't think my email can do it justice. (The emails really don't do any justice for the experiences I'm having here.) 

A funny little story- (this is how missionary work goes in NY) So this was hilarious and awesome. Okay there is this couple here in Manhattan and they are VERY high class. Like VEERRY. Very confident and just really cool. (There seems to be a lot of people like that here hahah) Their names are Dave and Kate. Well they have been coming to church for the past 6 years. They aren't members. And they say they aren't interested in being baptized but they love the church. (We are working on them) :)  Anyways we had dinner with them and It was amazing. Dave has SO many connections with people in the world. He is big time you guys. Well we were eating dinner and he mentioned fashion week and I basically just told him how much I love fashion week.. Next thing you know he was asking me what day I wanted tickets... UM. Yeah hi. I told him my P day and we'll see what happens with that.. But WOAH. He has an in with everyone. Just before we were about to leave he shook my hand for a long second and said to me "you look like you could be a good actress. You have a very awesome personality and you could go far. Keep in contact with me after your mission and I will get you put in acting classes and I can connect you with some people." I was laughing so hard because.. like what!?!? 

BLaHhhhhh!!!!! Hahaha you guys. Here I am being a missionary in New York living in one of my dreams. Somebody pinch me...? Haha!!! So that was funny. (Never have I EVER pictured myself as an actress..!) I guess I never pictured myself as a missionary either tho... Ha! But really an actress isn't the lifestyle I'm going for... I took it as a compliment tho. Cool right? 

Tender mercy.. Our dinner calendar is FULL for the next four weeks. Wow. So blessed. And whoever stays In this area (sister brown or I) is a lucky. Haha watch I will get transferred just because of the sudden success I'm seeing. Gods will. He knows what is best for me to become like him :)

Hahaha my companion and I have become really good at helping to push cars out of the icy snow banks on the side of the road. We always see people struggling to pull away so we drop our bags and PUSH. Haha little acts of service bring so much happiness. Can you just picture the two of us? People are always shocked that we come to help. Good stuff.

You guys I just HAVE to let you all know that HEAVENLY FATHER IS THERE. He really really truly is there. Never have I EVER been SO sure of it. Like my knowledge of him being there right now, is like my knowledge that I am alive on earth. I AM SO SURE OF IT. I wish you could get inside my head and be able to see ALL the tender mercy's that I witnessed this last week. I will share more details and thoughts in a second . 

But first, I just wanted to give a HUGE thank you to those who have been reading my blog. And to those who have let me know. Every time I receive an email from somebody letting me know that they have been a reader of my blog, I get little tears in my eyes. I can't tell you how much it means to me! I'm so grateful that I have the opportunity to write home about these experiences that I am having. I hope and pray that I can continue to share more of the things I'm learning and experiencing in a way that will continue to help bring the spirit into your lives. To those reading my blog: I LOVE YOU. And to those not reading my blog: I LOVE YOU. Ha!! 

Here's just one example of God helping me out this week. So recently I have started praying that God would put people in MY path that are interested and that need the gospel. (Rather than having to find the needle in the haystack) because there are zillions of people here so you'd think there would be billions to teach.. Well there's not :) hence, my reason for praying for others to be put in my path that I can help!! Well WOAH. I can think of 6 times this last week of times where somebody came up to ME. SIX TIMES. That's not just coincidence. That never happens. I can't explain how good of a feeling that is. It is probably one of my favorite feelings. It's like at times I feel like a sales person who isn't selling a stinkin thing. So for someone to come to ME with questions is like taking a HUGE drink of refreshing niceness :) haha. I also wish you could see how big my smile gets when people come to me asking about what I am doing and who I am. It just feels good. SMILEY WEEK :)

This week we got not one baptismal date, but TWO. Oh my heck. Father in Heaven is working through my companion and I and it feels SO good to be a part of this. I will have to tell you their stories another time. But I just feel blessed.

A moment of HAPPINESS and a shout out to:

Ma gurl MADDIE SIKICH who moved to NYC and lives in my area!!! Uhhhh heck yeah. I love her. When I saw her my heart skipped a beat and I wanted to jump into her arms. These tender mercy moments where I get to see people from home are AMAZING. I feel very extremely blessed to be here. It's an overwhelming feeling that I have of feeling blessed. 

So something I was feeling this last week was this unknown random boost of extreme confidence. CONFIDENCE. I can't explain too well but I will do my best. So being a missionary here in New York, you get lots of condescending people who treat you like you're "one of those weird Mormons" well it can be challenging to feel completely 100% confident at all times in front of these successful people. But I am telling you.. I felt like I could have born my testimony to the President of the United States and not have been shaken. I felt as though I could have born MY WITNESS of our Savior to Taylor Swift, to Kate Middleton, to The Pope, to Harry Styles, to ANYONE IN THE WORLD. (I guess you could say the names I listed are those that I consider to be cool and successful people haha.) I just have zero doubt in my mind that God loves us. and that he has a plan for us. (That plan being the gospel.) I have no doubt that he sent his son to the earth to pay for our sins so that we could one day live with him again. I KNOW that our Father in Heaven calls prophets to the earth to help us know his plan for us. I know that God is SMART and he knows ALL things. and so he set up a way for us to successfully and CLEARLY understand his plan. (The gospel) :) And that is by giving authorization (the priesthood) to man to act in His name. because if He allowed everyone to just freely baptize each other and freely change doctrine then God would not be very smart... But he IS smart. And he is organized. That's why there is such a thing as the priesthood. And such a thing as ONE TRUE CHURCH. You know? I know that after a long time of that authority being lost from the earth, that The Prophet Joseph Smith restored it back to the earth so we HAVE IT TODAY. I know that God loves us. And I know that he is leading and guiding us RIGHT NOW through our prophet Thomas S. Monson. Like IT ALL JUST MAKES SENSE. It's simple. It's pure. It's truth. And it rings in my heart. I cannot deny the powerful witness that I have received that there is a God and that he does indeed love us. I know he is there! I bear you my witness. This church is TRUE. 

I love you guys. So much!!!

Sorry for the randomness. (Always random emails) 

Haha

Love Sister Dunford 

Ps happy love week!

A Novel from Sister Abbey Dunford

Hello Everyone!! :)

(Forgive me for spelling errors because I'm typing like a crazy) 

It's still winter over here in NYC. I'm a leaping queen. Leaping across the gross puddles EVERYWHERE. I wish you could see how yucky the ground is here. Hahah literally the grossest ever. Slush everywhere!! Because it snowed and rained and iced and winded and snowed and rained and iced and winded. But I smiled and smiled and smiled :)

the view from a members apartment

This week was a really hard but good week. I learned lots of little things. I'm MEGA learning patience right now!! Isnt it funny how we have to be stretched and pulled and uncomfortable in order for us to be who Heavenly Father wants us to be? A quote I like says: "He gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for your everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain.” Sometimes I'm just like WHY. Hahah but I know why. I do love the growth I see in myself. HURTS SO GOOD. :)

Some random thoughts-

I LOVE the ward that I am in. I absolutely love it. And PS my favorite blogger signed up to have us over for dinner ..... I was straight up grinning from ear to ear. This will be good hahahaha. 

It's really cold here. Really really really cold. But we are making it through the days somehow!! It's that darn wind I'm tellin you... Cold days = grumpy New Yorkers and grumpy New Yorkers = discouraged missionaries. Haha but the discouragement somehow turns into a laugh from me because it's sometimes so funny to think about what we are doing!! So the equation = laughter. Boom! Missionary work in cold New York is GOOD. 

Today one of my favorite members is taking us on a cookie adventure. She knows all the best places in Manhattan so this will be GOOD. 

We had a miracle moment of THREE investigators at church. Tenderest Mercy all week!!!

Our top investigator these days is Jay. He's pretty cool not kidding. We taught Jay at one of my other favorite member's apartment.. and it was so good. SUCH a good spirit there!!! Well I was laughing in this lesson something funny Jay said to me.. He looked me in the eyes and he was like "did you have special training to be a missionary? Do they train you every week for this?? Did you have to go to any sales classes? Because I studied psychology and you seem to ask all the right questions.." I was like uhhhhhh.... I went to the missionary training center ??? Hahahah. Good old MTC helpin me out these days. No but really I will be honest. You know who helps me out in every lesson? The SPIRIT. Everyone knows I WOULD NOT be able to do this without the spirit. I'm just trying to be that instrument in gods hands. 

STORY ... :) (this one is for my sistas!!) haha

We went tracting on Friday in the project buildings here in Manhattan and oh my Hannah I almost got beat up. Hahahah! So the story goes like this...My companion and I started at the top floor and decided we were going to make our way down!! So we had been knocking doors for like an hour and a half. So stinkin discouraging. I'm being so honest with you right now it was just hard. Nobody would talk to us. Out of like 50 doors there was seriously ONE that opened and let us talk. It was a 10 year old Muslim boy cool yeah? . Well anyways we decided okay let's do one more floor. So we go to the second to last door and knock. Nobody comes so we knock again. Well we were about to walk away and then the door opened! And inside there was (what "seemed" to be a cute nice 23ish yr old black girl.) her appearance seemed totally normal and cute. So I smiled big at her!! Well just as I started to introduce the two of us, she cut me off so rudely and said in this deep mean black girl voice "you are at the wrong door" I was about to reply back and she said it again even louder!!! At this point my companion and I looked at each other getting ready to walk away when she stepped out and yelled at us asking why we were still there... I said "I'm sorry" and tried to explain that we were leaving and she grabbed my arm and smacked it so HARD... You should have seen my face.... In my head I was like "duuuuuude chill we are leaving!!!" And then she started punching the wall and saying she would come after us.. At this point we are like running down the stairs hahaha and we could hear her screaming "two stupid white girls never come back here again!!!" We finally got in the elevator and headed OUTTA there. And there I was just saddened a bit trying to take TAYLOR swifts advice to "shake it off" haha. (Easier said than done tayla!) 

So that felt weird. Aaaaaand I was like this is lame. Here I am working hard to share happiness with others and I just about got beat up!! But I guess you could say I shook it off shortly after! Hahah. Life goes on. Whatever.. The church is still true!! haha

There was a question that Jay (our investigator) asked me on the phone one night and it REALLY got me thinkin. His question was about prayer! Here's how it came up.. I told Jay that in the near future, one of us, (Sister Brown or Sister Dunford) will probably be transferred. He was heart broken. He didn't realize that we get transferred every 6 weeks. He thought we just stay in the same area for our full 18 months! So with that being said, Jay told me he was going to PRAY that Sister Brown and I would stay here for our whole missions. I kinda laughed and told him that he could pray for that ALL he wants but that it's all up to God and it's "His will." Not ours. Well Jay got pretty upset. He is still learning so much about God's nature and about prayer! (Because he has literally ZERO religious background) ..we have told Jay time and time again that when he prays he can ask Heavenly Father for whatever he wants and that he can just pour out his heart to Him. (So you can understand how coming to understand "Gods will" could be difficult.) well Jay said "wait a second.. what's the point in me praying and asking for anything that I want.. if no matter what.. it's "Gods will" not mine?" ... "Uhhhhh. Good question Jay??" This is something that I have come to understand for myself through experience and I couldn't quite explain the answer briefly in a way that he would understand and be okay with "Gods will" not ours. You know? So I told Jay that the next time we meet that we can talk more about prayer and why it's so important that we pray even though it's "Gods will." He said yes I would love to discuss more about prayer next time. So we ended that phone call and I was DETERMINED to find an answer that would sit right for Jay. In all my personal studies I was on the search for an answer. And who knows if there will EVER be an answer that Jay will be okay with. But I needed to find one. So there the question sat in my mind.  WHY do we even pray with faith and ask for things.. if no matter how much faith we have.. it's still "Gods will" not ours..???

I will tell you what. After searching and finding things here and there.. there was one talk that REALLY stood out to me. And it's called "Fear not ,I am with thee" by Jean A Stevens. (And I have read this talk before and loved it.. but it now applies in a whole new way.) so Jean talks about how Heavenly Father TRULY hears our prayers. Heavenly Father HEARS us. He is there. Listening. And he DOES and WILL and can answer us. There was a paragraph that stuck out to me and here it is.. (I will use capital letters for emphasis :) ) 

"We can trust that He WILL help us, not necessarily in the way WE want ... but in the way that will BEST HELP US TO GROW. Submitting our will to His may be difficult, but it is essential to BECOMING LIKE HIM and finding the peace He offers us."

Okay I probably sound like I'm screaming at you when I use capital letters but I just want you to see the words that really click and make sense for me. :) haha. So my thought process was... We are HERE on earth for one reason. And that is.. to become like our Heavenly Father so we can live with him again one day. Yeah? So wouldn't it completely make sense that "God's will" is REALLY what WE want!!! We just are so limited in our perspective that "God's will" sounds almost kinda bossy and not the way we want things.. But in the BIG PICTURE "God's will" is for realz the BEST thing for us. ..... So now when I meet with Jay next I can tell him that WHATEVER God's will is... It is honestly and truthfully the best thing that could EVER happen for him. And the reason we PRAY to God in faith is because it changes US. It helps us become more like our Father in Heaven. Praying gives us hope. And peace and comfort. Think about when Christ did the will of our Father.... Christ prayed to God and pleaded even though HE KNEW our fathers will. He knew that his suffering needed to happen. Yet he still prayed. "And he went a little further, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt." Matthew 26:39

I can't say it better than Elder Robert D. Hales. He says: “It takes great faith and courage to pray to our Heavenly Father, ‘Not as I will, but as thou wilt.’ The faith to believe in the Lord and endure brings great strength. Some may say if we have enough faith, we can sometimes change the circumstances that are causing our trials and tribulations. Is our faith to change circumstances, or is it to endure them? Faithful prayers may be offered to change or moderate events in our life, but we must always remember that when concluding each prayer, there is an understanding: ‘Thy will be done.’ Faith in the Lord includes trust in the Lord”

Praying changes US. Praying helps us know God's will. I'm SO grateful that God has a will. Because he knows how and what needs to happen in order for me to become like him. I know it's not always easy to be okay with Gods will (like Sister Brown or I getting transferred) .. and sometimes we don't want to do Gods will. But I KNOW that God can see the big picture and that he is doing what will make us like him. And that is PERFECT. So if we can just submit our will for His.... We. will. one. day. be. perfect. And who doesn't want that? 

Blah blah blah I could keep going and going and sharing more things that I'm learning but I won't! Too hard to explain. So anyways. I leave that little testimony with you in the name of Jesus Christ amen! (Because I'm learning how important it is that we do ALL things in the name of Christ.) so that's why I closed in his name ;) 

Happy LOVE month ;)

I LOVE YOU ALL

Love,

Sister Abba Dunford :) 

en la cabeza

HELLO...

That was a fast week!!! Wow!! 

I feel like not a ton happened... But I was sick :( so I will explain.

My story of being SICK this last week-

Let's see I started not feeling well Friday night after our sisters conference. I was kinda shaky and just dizzy. So weird. So we ate dinner at a members and then we headed home early that night. I checked my temperature and I had a low fever. I went straight to bed. Haha. So then Saturday came and it was my companions birthday!!! Well I was still feeling sick. But I didn't want to tell her because I wanted her birthday to be a good day!! I didn't want to make her stay in all day with me on HER BIRTHDAY you know??? So we were out all day Saturday. (Not a good idea for me.) Well Sunday came and I still felt sick. But we couldn't miss church because church is important!! So Sunday we were out again. (Again NOT a good idea) And I just kept telling myself that I wasn't sick. (But I so was.) being sick as a missionary is possibly the worst thing in the world haha. SO Monday we went to district meeting and got news of the giant snow storm. I was not feeling good. I remember on the subway ride there I thought I was going to pass out haha!! We were told that we had to be in early that night and that we might have to stay in our apartments all of Tuesday and maybe Wednesday!! I was like what is this crazy snow storm? But SUCH a tender mercy because we were told to be in early. Which is exactly what my body needed. Haha I loved all the emails I got telling me to be careful because of the snow storm!!! Thanks for watching out for me guys :) So we had to go grocery shopping on Monday to make sure we had enough food and water and flashlights, just in case we got stuck in our apartments because of the snow.     

.... EVERYONE IN NYC WAS GOING CRAZY.

We went to trader joes and Holy. Cow. Never have I ever been to a more crowded grocery store in my life. The line was insanely long. It was so chaotic. And I'm just like standing there so dizzy and shaky trying to understand the chaos. So we got all prepared and took our groceries home. Got home and I was like "sister brown I'm not feeling so good..." (I finally told her that I couldn't do missionary work because I was too sick.) so we stayed in Monday night. Okay so I checked my temperature again and had a fever of 101.6 I felt like I was on drugs or something. Didn't feel well at ALL. I was freeeeeeezing and shaking and aching and blah. So I went to bed. That night was the worst sleep I've ever had. I was hot and then cold and shaking and dizzy and coughing and weird. I woke up Tuesday morning and I couldn't even think straight. Couldn't walk. I was achy and no bueno!! Took my temperature again and my fever was 103. I just started crying. It was one of those helpless moments. Hahahah. I took some medicine and took a shower and tried to calm myself. Poor sister brown did not know what to do with me. So anyways I slept ALL DAY LONG. Drank water and slept. I learned that I need to listen to my body when it's telling me that I'm sick. I should not have been out all those days feeling as sick as I was. Even tho I am a missionary, I still need to take care of ME. I guess I was REALLY just forgetting myself and going to work hahaha!!  And now it's P DAY and I am feeling a lot better. SO..... If you aren't feeling well... You should always REST. Don't over do it :) because then you might feel like a drug addict like I did. lesson learned. 

Okay so we had a fun sisters conference on Friday!! Every single sister missionary in our mission got to go to a sisters conference in Scarsdale. That was fun. We ate lunch together and heard from some really good speakers. There are over 250 missionaries in our mission right now and about 100 of them are sisters!! Lots of sisters. It's good. I really really love my mission president. President Morgan is seriously amazing. Just thought I'd tell you :)

We had a cool lesson with our investigator Jay! Well... It was very intense. They are all intense with him. Haha we haven't been able to get through one lesson with Jay because he has SO many questions. Which is real good. But hard because we have met with him like 4 times and STILL haven't even gotten through the restoration lesson. We keep telling him that he will understand more as we teach him more of the lessons but oh my hannah he is SUCH a deep thinker. His questions are out of this world. Every time we teach him we are for realz on the edge of our seats and fully awake. Jay is very kind to us. He bought us a $25 Starbucks gift card and every time we have a lesson he brings us a treat. And he got sister brown a birthday present. So he is kind. Haha lots of kind investigators. 

Somethin I was thinkin about-

Even though not everyday of being a missionary is fabulous.. I have seen evidence EVERY day that God is with me. I literally can find evidence every single day that he is here with me and helping me. Because the mission can be HARD you guys. No secret that the mission is hard. (Dad, my mission is not roses and flowers and butterflies everyday) :) yes I have wonderful days and wonderful moments but if you could see every second of everyday being a missionary, it's not easy. So, to those thinking about serving a mission... DO IT DO IT DO IT!! But, just know that it's haaaaaard :) and you might cry when you get a fever and your mom isn't there to comfort you :) ha!! 

I LOVE YOU GUYS

Love Abbs